so here I am, in my bed. Tomorrow is the day that I am going back home. I have not seen him for over a month and I am not sure what to expect. He can't pick me up at the airport (not his fault) and it seems weird, I was so excited for that! On the other hand I can't want to get home, to hug him and to feel close to someone.
Despite the fact that I miss him like crazy and I can't wait to see him, I feel that the distance left it's impact on me. We both been kind of moody lately. We are all just people in need to feel close to someone. I can't wait to be in his arms, to feel the warmth of his body and touch of his lips.
This is the longest time we've been apart and luckily it is the only time (at least I hope so). From now on everything will be batter.
The other subject I was going to talk about is fantasy. He is a person who normally wants things he can't have. Then on the other hand sometimes he get some things and it is just frustrating for him. Upside down.
Here are some examples:
1) We would be at the train station and he would saw a girl wearing pantyhose and whisper to me: "I would lick her feet." Normally I would just roll my eyes and say whatever but borders are blurry. I know that my legs are not perfect and that many girls have much nicer legs and all that. And I also know that I am amazing as a person (inside and out) and that everything is just fantasy but sometimes it just makes me feel that he wants something else. I also know that it is just in my head.
2) He has this fantasies about chastity and denial but when I do it with him he just get so frustrated and kind of upset. The same it goes with home chores, I tell him to clean the floor and after he is frustrated about it. He often says: be careful what you wish for.
Sometimes it get kind of mixed all together and for me as a dominant woman and as someone who needs to control things I will just have to learn how to deal with him at those points in the way that I can benefit from. I am still evolving in that regard. I am a smart girl and I will master it soon. :)
That would be it for today, looking forward to tomorrow and for my way home. Can't wait to see him!