Lack of submission

Hello

well, truth to be told there is not much that is going on regarding me and my slave.

He can touch himself without my confirmation and I can tell he is doing that often. We are not talking about it, it became some sort of a "taboo" topic. :(

Lately there have not been a lot of moments of his true submission to me, especially not days. Despite the fact that I have been sending him pictures of me wearing stockings and so on.

It is true that we are both busy but I just really miss the feeling of his devoted submission to me and to me only. 

You all know that I am obsessed with wearing stockings, pantyhose and all of other hosiery related items (also love knee high socks) and that is why I/we have decided to open a business with pantyhose in USA. So far it was great just a lot of work. This project that we started was slowly developing and now we are finally finishing it.

I will finally have a business that I am really passion about and that I really love doing. I mean of course we are talking about pantyhose that I am wearing every day anyway. Would love to have a my slave next to me every day to clean them after work along with my feet. 

This is it for now, I won't see my slave till mid December, so for now I will just have to suck it up even though I hate it.

Best,

Boss G.  

Frustration

Hello,

so here I am, back to my life without my slave. I guess it would be nice to give you some updates about my trip back to our house.

Well things did not go as expected, I wanted house to be perfect for me and it was not. In my bathroom I did not even have towels waiting to me, I was really shocked.

Than my toys was not  organized in any way. And I do not even want to start with kitchen, I spent the whole next morning cleaning it, for myself, I just can't stand it being dirty (he was working on our project that we are doing). How bizarre! He did not even vacuum the rug in our bedroom. The bath tub in my bathroom still had some mud in it because he was cleaning something. Very poor. 

I am not sure what happened, I asked him several times if he did all that I demanded and he said yes. 

Did he stop trying? Is that all because we do not live together any more? 

So many unanswered questions...

I just know that things are getting harder, and things are getting out of control and I hate it. 

I am a control freak, that is why I am Mistress but some things just can't be controlled and it is very frustrating.

I guess that is because I can't punish him right away, and he is being such a baby about the whole whipping thing. He always says he hates it but never trys to do things right to avoid it. So stupid.  

On the other hand some things were fine when I got there, sheets were clean, shoes were organized and floor was clean. But there were more things wrong than right. But I am not willing to lower my standards! I deserve all the best and all to be perfect.

My staying there was very nice though, we had some nice dinners outside, good play time and I even took some photos of us playing. Amazing! I am very happy with them. 

We are doing some new project that are taking some of spare time but now we have to suck it up and wait until they are finished. We are both want it to be perfect.

Another thing I would like to mention is I am controlling his orgasms and he asked me if he can cum freely now that I no longer live with him. What does he mean? He is fucking owned by me! He is my pathetic slave. He should do whatever to make me happy at any time.

I know there is a lot to blame it on me as well, I am not being consistent with punishment. 

I don't know what future holds for us but I just know it is going to be hard and it is already very frustrating for me. 

That is all for today, kind of a messy post, all together but I just needed to let it out and I am sure I will be able to give you some explanations when I will be in a better place.  

Being away

Hi to everyone

I am sure you can all see that I am not a native English speaker and even though I am trying to make my English perfect sometime it is just too obvious. The point I am trying to make is that he is a native speaker and sometimes we have some differences with the whole language thing. Now that I no longer live with him (and also do not speak English on a daily bases) differences occur even more often and sometimes we get frustrated.

I really miss playing with him whenever I want and I really miss that I do not have him to serve me. I also miss that my shoes are not clean all the time, clothes not washed and so on...

I am going back to our house for a couple of days next week for the first time since I moved out. Of course I told him to make everything perfect. I already have the whole scenario in my head for what do I want to do with him and to him. Of course everything starts with him doing all the chores I made him do. Basically the house has to be spotless, my shoes (that are still there) should be clean and organized. The dinner should be ready and I am sure he knows he will spend a lot of time on his knees.

He still has his chastity Fridays and so far he has been very good. This Friday he even surprised me with very pathetic picture (smelling my shoes, naked and in chastity doing his 5 min. time off). I was really surprised and happy with him, this only means that the training works. Oh and just a quick explanation about his 5 min time off. Every day after work when he gets home he hast to take off his clothes, kneel next to the bed and spend 5 minutes on his knees to remind him of his place and where he belongs to. He is not allowed to talk and sometimes he has to take my shoes and put his nose deep inside them and just smell them for the whole time off.

Since I am gone and out of our house a couple of the times he has been really bad and did not behave the way he should and he needs to be punished!!! I can't wait to use my ridding whip on his ass, put on his collar and leash and make him follow me around the house; naked and with hard dick...

I am also looking forward to breakfast in bed and while I am enjoying my meal he will be kneeling next to the bed, waiting for me to finish to clean up the dishes...

Oh and of course he is not allowed to cum for a whole week until I get there! I am sure there will be some begging but I am also sure he knows I want him to be really submissive when I get back home.

Anyway, I can't wait to write about all the things I have planned for the end of the week with my pathetic slave. I also have to say that I have been very proud of him lately and he behaved really well! I don't know if I am so lucky to have a slave who is so easy to train or it is something else. I am so happy that we both share the same fetishes and that he loves to smell, lick and suck my feet till they are clean.

Either way I am very happy to have such a great slave in my life who would do anything to make me happy and who is very happy to serve me.

Boss Georgina

Threesome

Hello again,

It has been a while since I posted something but I was really busy. So this time I am going to talk about a decision that I made a couple of weeks ago. Since we are still both relatively young and we want to experience a lot I decided that we will have a threesome with another woman. But as it turned out I am very picky. It is absolutely important for me that she is submissive as well, that she looks good and so on... I am really not settling for less. So for now I am still looking...

Of course he is really excited about it but I kind of excluded him from even looking at other girls. It is going to be mine and only mine decision with who, when, how and even if.   I told him when I will find the right girl he will be the first one to know. :)

So that is basically it for now regarding to threesome. The only think that still surprises me (or I just don't  know where to look) is that is kind of hard to find the women that is suitable. If it will happen it will otherwise it is fine as well.

So update about chastity. I really love how it looks on his dick.

He is travelling a lot lately and he can't wear it during that time and also he can't wear it to the office because you can see it through the suit. We are both very private and we both hate public exposure. After all things are getting better. He was able to tell that I was really upset with him about touching his dick and he got scared when I ordered the chastity. For now I've created the chastity Friday when he has to wear the chastity for 24 hours. He complained a little bit but that is just the way he is.

The other thing right now is that we don't live together any more. Not even close together. Different city, different country. I am a control freak and I hate when he does things without asking. So I told him that he is not allowed to touch his dick without asking or do anything else without consulting with me first. I know it is going to be hard to control and train him from far away but I can do it. I spend a lot of time teaching him to be honest with me no matter what, He isn't allowed to have secrets of any kind and it is also in our contract . And so far I have to admit it is working. He told me things you normally you keep for yourself.

I am not sure how other people do it but I allowed him to take vacation. He had to travel there for some business and he extended his trip a little bit longer. I didn't want to give him a hard time when he was on vacation and I really regret it now. I let him go for a couple of days and a lot of stuff went wrong. He lost a lot of money. But it is completely my fault this time because I let him go. He feels bad about it and I understand that. But it was me who gave him all the power and I agreed that he has his days off on vacation. Lesson learned, it is not going to work like that any more. First and last vacation that he took with all that power.

That would be it for now.

G.

Traveling

Hi everyone,

Here we go, he is traveling again and this time is for a full week. I believe he is going to behave this time. Unfortunately the chastity device did not make on time. He must of missed by one day (which he is really happy about) and I am upset about it. However he took his little dick collar with and I am sure I will make him wear it. He can't read this in the country his staying and currently we are in different time zones by 6 hours, so he is ahead of me and I am happy about it.

Sometimes I get really frustrated by all this traveling and I just feel he can't serve me as much as he should. His main role is to serve me and do absolute maximum to make and keep me content. Very soon he will be done with all this work trips and there will be more time for him to focus on his main role in his life - being a good slave. Also with all this business trips it is hard to make a standard routine for him.

On the bright side I can make house dirty so when he comes back he can immediately start with his chores and it puts him back to his place. To be pathetic and to do whatever I tell him to do. All though he gets really frustrated by this kind of things and he starts to complain a lot. I hate that! I am the Boss and he is here to serve me so it is not acceptable for him to complain if I leave some house work for him. I really need to start punishing him for that, I mean real punishment!!!!

I already made new bed regime; that means every night before bed he has to bring me a whip and ask for punishment and also count the hits. If he makes to much noise when I hit him that does not count and I start over.

So this is where we are now. I am looking forward to him coming back so he can serve me again.

If he will make some horrible decisions while traveling I will definitely keep you posted and it will give me more time to come up with a good punishment as well.

Boss Georgina

Dissapointment

Hello,

so here we are, one day after his return from the business trip.

I cannot even tell you how disappointed I am about my pathetic slave!!! So let me give you a little bit of background. One day before his trip I allowed him to cum twice just to make sure he won't do anything stupid while travelling. After his second orgasm I made him wear his little dick collar (that pokes him every now and than, not a really big deal). In the evening that same night we had dinner with my friend and after we stopped in our house for some drinks. Apparently he had some stomach issues and spend some time on the toilet and of course removed the collar. At that point I kind of forgot that he was still wearing it but it does not matter. The big problem is that he never told me he removed it!!! The next day he went on a business trip and I saw the collar in the drawer. I immediately sent him a message saying how he dare removed it without asking me?! And what was his answer: Oh my stomach was hurting me. Of course I was not upset that he removed it because he felt sick, I was mad that he did not tell me about removing it and apologize for it!!!!

But that is far from the rest of disappointment I got from him. :(

His business trip was like Monday to Wednesday the same week so I would play with him on the evening he got back. As you can see in my previous post I was really excited for it and I was planning a very nice evening.

So on Monday when I found out that he removed his collar without telling me I sent him an email with all the things he has to do before he comes back. One of the things was also not to touch his dick if it is not absolutely necessary (like peeing for example). That same evening we got a little bit dirty talking on the phone and I was still very clear that he is not allowed to touch his dick! I told him the same thing before he left for the trip and we also have it in the contract. The next day was really stressful for me and a lot of unpleasant things happened. It was his last evening there and he decided to go for some drinks with his co-workers which is perfectly fine with me! I went to sleep before him and at 1 am I received a message that he jerked off the night before. Normally I would not even wake up but I had a truly bad day and I slept very lightly and saw the message. I was so upset, it was like the biggest disappointment I have ever received such a disappointment from him and I was so shocked that it has even happened. At first I was thinking that he is messing with me and try to make me laugh because of my bad day but NO it was the truth.

I felt really mad and upset. I was so angry. HOW CAN HE DO THAT?! It is not like I kept him in chastity for months.

It would be fine if he would break any other rule but really, that one?! It was the only rule that I was really strict about. And once again it is not so much of a problem that he did it, the biggest issue is that he did not even ask for it!!! If he would ask I am sure I would be able to convince him not to do it, that is to mean and that he will be home in one day. But no, he decided to be an idiot. It still makes me so upset even thinking about it. The next day I asked him if he did it on Tuesday as well and he said not and than I was like: "How can I believe you now? You broke the only rule I always asked you to follow." I felt so said and also betrayed in a way.

Before this whole thing happened he did not have chastity device but I immediately decided to get one! It is already in the way.

It was just horrible and we are still far from done with punishment!!!!

NO MORE BREAKING THE RULES YOU PATHETIC WORTHLESS SLAVE

The beginning and all the differences

Hi all,

so here is the day, the way first day when I decided that we are going to do this, write this blog. So let's start, first of all I am a Mistress and I have a full time slave. I was thinking about writing about mine/our experience for a while and here I am. :)

So the deal was that we both would both start to write this and he is allowed to read mine blog as well. Mostly I will be writing about the things that already happened so it is just fine for my pathetic slave to read this.

We started our relationship not really as a Mistress/slave thing but it was very clear that I am waaaaay above him. This is where it all started and he embraced his role as a full time slave very openly and he surrender to my control in every way. 

I have all the bank cards and I control all the purchases! We also have a Contract of voluntary slavery that helps him to memorize all the daily chores he has to perform. There is also a whole section of sex positions that he has to know very well and any time I want he has to put his body into that position and wait for additional commands.

To be completely honest at first I had no idea how much responsibility this brings in my life but I absolutely love it. I love that I have the power to control and command someone! I love to see him kneeling in front of me with that submissive look in his eyes and I know is be ready for whatever I have planed to do to him.

But beside all that I have to admit that  have not been very consistent with him lately. I did not enforce all the rules and sadly I just let it go in a way. Of course I gather all the mistakes he makes in my head but I am sure it would be way more affective to punish him right away. 

The other thing that is worth mentioning is that he has his own fetishes and there are similar to mine but after a perform them him sometimes complain about it. There is also one other fetish he has that i never came across before. No on ever worshipped  my feet and he introduced it to me and it is really great. I'm really enjoying it!!! All though sometimes (I do not really why) he just refuses to do that and it is kind of weird. 

No matter how much I love having him in my life there are some things from his past that kind of holds me down. Right now what I think is going on is just that I set my mind on it and it is constantly there. Some things I see just makes me think of his past. I also know that is super wrong and the things that happened in the past should stay there. But sometimes I just feel he is the one who is dragging them into the present. Also I can be very sensitive about the whole thing as well. Maybe it is just an age difference (I highly doubt that is the case) but I am sure I will be able to just let it go at some point. 

Don't get this wrong. I am not sitting at home and giving him the lecture about it. It is just in me and I do not really share it with him. When I do it becomes normally a little fight that is definitely  better to skip because it is not worth it.

Back to the real thing. I know there is a lot that I have to learn about this as well. The only thing is that is kind of frustrating is that he is willing to be submissive only if he is horny. That can be a big issue because I can't keep him horny 24/7. I mean of course I could but there is that other thing that I also love called fucking. He is very different than all the other man I've dated before and his whole figure is something I always wanted but did not know what it is. So there is a problem because I would expect to fuck 3-4 times a week. Maybe I should just not let him cum. That is an option. Any thoughts? Well there are also alternatives. Just not to fuck and make him use his tongue, fingers, vibrator etc. But was it better than a good hard fuck after some worshipping and whipping?! 

For now I think the main thing I have to be very consistent with him to make him the slave I want him to be. I am definitely serious about making him my full time slave for life. Just to train him till perfection. 

I am very open for any thoughts and opinion.

PS: He is coming home from a business trip tomorrow, who knows what I have prepared for him :) 

Boss Georgina