What the future holds

Hi everyone,

for this blog post, I was partly inspired by two other blogs that I follow and read regularly. One was talking about how hard it is for a partner/husband/slave to obey with his ego and wishes, and the other one was about the way Femdom works and how people misinterpret the meaning Femdom in a 24/7/365 relationships.

For me it is really important to be consistent with the instructions I give him so that he is not confused and that he can't say: "Oh, I forgot". The last time I saw him consistently  did not take place and he did not do anything the way he should, he did not even try. But I can't really blame him for that since I did not really guide him and I was able to tell that he did not feel like he is being controlled. However, I feel that the last time we were together it was not so much about that because we needed some time to reconnect.

He has a hard time obeying me, and sometimes I really have to push it so that he gets the point. It is wrong to think that I yell at him or I am mean, normally I would just tell him what to do, turn, and walk away and leave him with his thoughts until he realizes that he actually has no choice but to do as I said. Some other times, some disciplinary actions need to take place. I read a lot of blogs about how submissive partners are locked in the chastity all the time and that they feel weird and free without it. Chastity for my slave is a big punishment and I don't use it as often; it's either when I don't want him to touch himself when I am away or when he really pisses me off.
When I am with him he knows that there is no way he is allowed to touch himself (unless otherwise instructed) and I know he would never do it... It is 8 days until I will see him again and I am getting ready for some big changes! He definitely needs to reconnect himself with his real position in our relationship and starts to follow ALL the rules. Starting with the "small" ones. Like dropping on his knees when we get home and kissing my feet.

Regardless to the previous topic; If you have read any of my previous posts, you know that we have some major differences to overcome. They will take place by the end of this year at the latest, maybe even sooner. All of that is becoming a bigger and bigger issue for me since I have no idea how we are going to deal with it. There are a couple solutions but none of them are ideal... I am wondering how far it will take us and what will be the final result. Living on different continents is just not going to work... Anyway, one step at the time.

Cheers,

Miss G. 

Getting back on track

Hi everyone,

First of all, I would just like to say that I am so happy to see that a lot of people is reading my blog. I am seeing a lot on visitors and I am really happy about it. :) Also thank you for all the comments that you left.

Hmm... I am alone again, away from him. It feels weird. Those 20 days that we had together it was like 20 min and not days! When we are together time is passing by so fast. Luckily, I am going back home in 9 days and I am really happy about it. This place kind of frustrates me but it has nothing to do with the fact that we are not together. 

Lets talk about some more interesting stuff right now! :)

Despite the fact that we were together for 20 days there was not a lot of real sessions or anything like that. I believe that we mostly spent our time reconnecting with each other and reminding why we are so amazing together. 

BUT the other day I was browsing through Fetlife and I got really inspired! I can't wait to try it with him and I would love to tell you what it is but I don't want spoil it for him since he has no idea what I have in mind and I tend to keep it that way. 

Once during the time I was back home he had to do one day trip and the day before I put him in "the position" and spanked his ass. I told him that is for the next night that he is going to spent away and his red ass will remind him of that. 

Before I got back home I saw a picture on the internet of a girl holding guys dick and he is breathing in her ear while she is jerking him off. He was clearly a submissive guy. I took a screen shoot of that and sent it to him saying that I want that... It actually happened! :)

One day, I got him completely naked on the bed, put lotion on my hands and started playing with his dick. Before he came I stopped, started again and stopped. I left the room and I came back with a pair of black pantyhose that I put on his dick and just played with it... He was rock hard! He started shivering from the pleasure and the frustration that I didn't allow him to cum. I placed myself in the similar position as the woman on that picture. It was really amazing. Hearing his frustrated and with pleasure mixed breath while I was pulling on his dick. I had him so close to his orgasm for SO long. I set back up and went crazy again. He asked me several times if he can cum but the answer was always no. I tortured him for a while and then I let him go. He was so happy and grateful. I can definitely say that that was one of the best orgasms he have ever had.

As I set before in my post but this time we spent on bonding and just being with each other and enjoying the time together.

Cheers,

G.

On the plane

Hi everyone,

I know it has been a while since I posted something but in the next couple of weeks I will be telling you about my time with him since I will be away.

First of all I would like to say that I had the best 19 days of my entire life. He is perfect!! I know that it might sound weird, and I don't mean perfect as a slave but just as a person and in general. 

You know that saying: "Most men aren't smart enough to realize that the higher you elevate your woman, the less available she is for other men." Well here is the thing, I am definitely not available for anyone else! 

It might be just me but I really loved today's morning when I woke up just before my flight and laid in my bad watch him typing on his iPad and he looked at me and said something stupid that made me laugh. The only thing I said was: fuck? Of yourself it was yes! :) but it didn't happen. Instead I uncovered my legs and put my feet on his nose (of course I was wearing pantyhose) which made him rock hard in seconds.... I made him lay on his back, pull his underwear down and grabbed his dick. 

I set down next to him and keep pressing my feet on his nose. He mumbled: "why do I have to have your feet on my nose?" It was just because he wanted me to say: because I want so!

I put some lotion on my hands, grabbed his dick and teased him a little bit. I said: "Can you cum for me?" He said yes and I gave him great orgasm. His cum squirted all over my hands and slid down on his belly... It was time for shower and to get ready to go... This was our way of saying goodbye...

I know that this my seem stupid and dreamy and just out of proportion but they always say that you know when you meet someone special... You really do. 

It is really incredible that we were able to meet. We are very symbiotic and we compliment each other perfectly. I still can't believe that I found him.

We still have disagreements and conflicts but we are able to solve it in a very nice and organized way which never leads to an actual fight.

Before I left the house he promised me something that meant a world to me. And I know he would never broke a promise. But about that some other time.

Cheers,

G.

Smell my feet

Hello,

he is away for tonight and just before I took him to the airport I decided to give him a little bit of a session. 

We started in a living room where he smelled my feet and that totally got me going. Moved upstairs where I teased his rock hard dick while he was sniffing my feet, deep breaths. Amazing. I gave him the "endless tunnel" with my hands and sucked on his dick. I wore dark red lipstick that left marks around his dick... so sexy. 

I commanded him to move into the "position" and finally took that whip out of my closet. OMG, that felt good. Just seeing those marks on his ass, his asshole moving and hearing those noises that he makes. Wow, that felt really good. 

While he was in the position I took my Hitachi vibrator and put it on his dick. Drives him crazy but he knew he is not allowed to cum. 

After a few very good hits I ordered him to flip back on his back where I grabbed his dick with my hand and put my feet on his nose. While he was taking deep breaths of my dirty feet I allowed him to cum with vibrator that I was pushing against his dick. He came good, really good. 

After he was done he thanked me. I said: "Go back to the position so I can whip that ass a little bit more and give you some nice marks for the trip." He did it and he was really scared about how hard I am going to hit him. I did a few whips but that was about it. 

He thanked me again, I put on his clothes (which btw I really like to do) and he was ready to go for the airport. 

It was short but something that we both liked (more or less).

G. 

Bonding

Hi everyone,

So here we are. In the bed with him sleeping by my side. I just don't feel tired but he is. 

Saturday was kind of easy. We went to Ikea to get some new furniture and we didn't do much. I really wanted to do more session type stuff but there is just a lot that I missed since I've been away and I just wanted to do some general bonding. We were cuddling a lot and just being with each other. 

Before bad on Saturday I put him in "the position" where he is on his all fours with his ass sticking up in the air. I have full access to his dick from behind and he has no control over it. That is definitely one of my favorite positions for him. 

Normally, I would lock his wrists, put collar around his neck and leash him but that nigh I didn't see/feel the need. I started pulling on his dick and that is absolutely amazing for him. I teased him for a long time. Brought him almost to the orgasm and then stop. So frustrating for him but so fulfilling for me. At the end I let him cum. I enjoy watching his sperm squirting from his dick.

Today we're such a lazy day, ester Sunday, we are not religious so we didn't do much. Just had really really lazy day. He paid some bills and washed the kitchen floor but that was about it.

I was preparing some lunch today and I band over and he said: "I wish I could fuck you right now." I just felt I big need for his dick inside me. And said: "let's just go upstairs!" I ran upstairs and he followed me, lift my skirt, pull down my pantyhose and he smelled my feet and we are ready to rock.

He put his dick inside me and started fucking me, it was so good and I really enjoyed our fuck. He is just amazing. We changed positions and he started fucking me from behind, I got my vibrator and I came fast and hard while he was fucking me. He continued fucking me from behind and after a few minutes I came again. It was amazing. I rolled over one more time and he fucked me until he came inside me.

It was just an amazing apatizer for our lunch that got moved by fair amount of time. 

The rest of the day was just hugging and cuddling on the sofa. I think the we both needed some really nice bonding. We laughed a lot and just had fun with each other. He is the best. 

Cheers,

G.

Reunion

Hello,

uh, well after my flight got all screwed up, delayed and missed connection I got home 6 hours later than expected. Midnight. Tired and exhausted and just happy to be home. Ugh, not as planned at all and it also got my off the tract.

My planes changed and I just wanted to go to sleep. Well it did not happen either.

He surprised me and lock HIMSELF in chastity and that totally turned me on and I just wanted to feel his hard dick inside me. Too tired for any real play I just teased him a little bit with my mouth and make him beg me to unlock him. I really wanted his dick inside me. It's been so long since the last time I had dick inside my pussy that it was just a pure need for that.

After approximately 10 min of teasing and kissing, sitting on top of him I unlocked him and make him fuck me really hard. It was amazing, his dick inside my pussy just feels right, and it felt right last night. Of course he was not allowed to cum without approval and I have myself 3 orgasms with hitachi vibrator while he was fucking me. At the end he came as well.

There was really not much action going not. Some lighter sniffing and worshipping but that was it. I was too tired.

However, today I had some time to go throught the house and I found some big mistakes... His definition of "perfect" is not the same as mine. That is for sure.

I started typing this post last night but didn't finish it because I was just too tired. 

I teased him a lot last night and gave myself an amazing orgasm and left him with nothing. I told him that he has to deserve it. And in order to do that he had to make me breakfast and bring it to bed; which he did and it was very good. I give him credit for that. He cleaned after me as well. 

After breakfast I hang cuffed him and played with his dick. Sucking it with my mouth and giving him a magic tunnel. He was totally under my spell, shivering from excitement and just wanted to cum sooooo badly. I let him. It was amazing to watch his cum squirting from his dick while I was holding it with my both hands. Just amazing. 

In the afternoon we had some chores to do and after I decided to use his dick. I am one of those women who really love the feeling of his dick in my mouth. I was sucking and licking his thing for a long time in the afternoon and just enjoyed his dick that I missed for so long. It is like his dick was made for my mouth. It fits so perfectly! I let him cum again. 

Tomorrow is Saturday and it is time for some discipline. I also miss seeing mark on his body and also time for some real play.

Will definitely keep you posted. 

Cheers,

G.

P.S.: Thanks for all of your comments. Love reading them. :)

Anticipation

Hello,

so here I am, in my bed. Tomorrow is the day that I am going back home. I have not seen him for over a month and I am not sure what to expect. He can't pick me up at the airport (not his fault) and it seems weird, I was so excited for that! On the other hand I can't want to get home, to hug him and to feel close to someone. 

Despite the fact that I miss him like crazy and I can't wait to see him, I feel that the distance left it's impact on me. We both been kind of moody lately. We are all just people in need to feel close to someone. I can't wait to be in his arms, to feel the warmth of his body and touch of his lips.

This is the longest time we've been apart and luckily it is the only time (at least I hope so). From now on everything will be batter. 

The other subject I was going to talk about is fantasy. He is a person who normally wants things he can't have. Then on the other hand sometimes he get some things and it is just frustrating for him. Upside down.   

Here are some examples:

1) We would be at the train station and he would saw a girl wearing pantyhose and whisper to me: "I would lick her feet." Normally I would just roll my eyes and say whatever but borders are blurry. I know that my legs are not perfect and that many girls have much nicer legs and all that. And I also know that I am amazing as a person (inside and out) and that everything is just fantasy but sometimes it just makes me feel that he wants something else. I also know that it is just in my head. 

2) He has this fantasies about chastity and denial but when I do it with him he just get so frustrated and kind of upset. The same it goes with home chores, I tell him to clean the floor and after he is frustrated about it. He often says: be careful what you wish for. 

Sometimes it get kind of mixed all together and for me as a dominant woman and as someone who needs to control things I will just have to learn how to deal with him at those points in the way that I can benefit from. I am still evolving in that regard. I am a smart girl and I will master it soon. :)

That would be it for today, looking forward to tomorrow and for my way home. Can't wait to see him! 

Cheers,

G.